Why I Don’t Believe in Having One ‘True Love’

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one true love

I couldn’t keep it in any longer. “I love you!” I exclaimed much too loudly to my boyfriend, who was sitting next to me on a blanket.

My boost of sudden confidence could have come from the bottle of wine we shared that night on the beach, or the romantic nature of our evening — under the stars, listening to the waves crash — but it didn’t matter. I had loved this man for some time now, and decided that I couldn’t live another second with the weight of this news lingering in my soul.

Startled, he turned, facing me, and sat there smiling for what felt like eternity. I clenched my toes in the sand, bracing myself for his reply. There it was, my heart on the line — vulnerable and exposed — uncertain if he loved me back.

“I love you more,” he finally said. Butterflies danced through my veins and I knew life would never be the same.

We married a few years later, and I was certain I had found my one true love in life. I was wrong.

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Breathing through an oxygen mask, I looked up wearily at my husband, who was grasping my hand tightly. “I can’t do this!” I cried.

There we were, on the 19th hour of labor. I was ready to give up — I had fought this battle with all of my might, and I was losing terribly. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a team of nurses setting up equipment to perform an emergency C-section, because this long, natural labor just wasn’t working.

My husband bent down, kissed my forehead, and whispered, “You’re so strong. You’re so close. You can do this.”

Exactly the words I needed to regain my confidence. Three pushes later and my daughter was suddenly lying on my chest.

Weak, relieved, and full of pure joy, I looked into her little, blue eyes. “I love you!” I exclaimed. The last 19 hours of pain were forgotten, and I knew life would never be the same. There she was, in all her perfection — the second love of my life.

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“And see this here?” The ultrasound technician pointed to a little fleck on the screen. My husband, my daughter and I all squinted our eyes and leaned our heads forward to try and make sense of the black and white shapes. “This here is a penis! It’s a boy! Congratulations!”

A boy! Excitement and fear washed over me all at once. I was the oldest of three sisters. Growing up, even our cat and dog were female. I didn’t know the first thing about little boys, let alone raising one.

Flash forward six months later, and after a miraculously easy four-hour labor, the doctor held him up — our little prince — and he began peeing everywhere.

My husband and I turned to each other and laughed. “I love him!” I exclaimed. All of my fear and uncertainty washed away, and I knew life would never be the same. There he was — our adorable, sweet, peeing little boy, in all his glory — the third and final love of my life.

This post originally appeared on The Huffington Post

About The Author Kristin Helms

Corporate life turned stay-at-home #momlife, Kristin Helms is a mother of two, writer, and founder of Tribe Magazine. Her mommy musings have been published on The Huffington Post, Literary Mama, Pregnant Chicken, and Big City Moms, among others.